can you say inappropriate? so, what kind of an example am i? i rock at being a mom... between chucking the remote at the wall, cussing like a sailor or having my family ask what casualties came out of the bathroom after throwing my curling iron, blowdryer, brush and anything else in sight at the wall......on top of that, all of the kids were crying and worried that mom was gonna put graphic, vulgar signs outside the house..... MERRY CHRISTMAS!!! So, what is the method to my madness.... A STUPID SNOWMAN... yes, you heard me correctly. You know, you see the fun yard displays that people have outside of their homes... well, we bought this really cute snowman, he was really tall and had a snowglobe for his tummy... well, we put him out last night, and steve and jeff replaced the lights with new colorful ones. So, our house was looking festive and happy for the holidays. well, that is, until the slasher paid a visit to our house. and as much as i would love to just throw the snowman, who now fashions 3 2-foot long gashes to his stomach, and tell everybody that i am fine and that it is just a stupid snowman... but for some reason it makes me soo damn angry and almost breaks my spirit to the point that i wouldnt mind if my hubby takes down the christmas lights that he just put up last night and call it good. I wish I were the kind of person who wouldnt mind taking things lightly and being ok when shit happens, because a stupid snowman isnt gonna make a difference when it comes to my eternal salvation, right? but after a couple of shitty things, i dont know why i should take it and be fine with it. although i guess that nothing will stop it from happening, right? anyway, i will stop venting, but only for a minute. As far as everything goes, I just want to thank you-those of you who arent afraid of having a psycho friend.... you definitely found one in me... thanks for putting up with the ups and downs.... and pessimism..... its fun isnt it??